i know typing this out is making me feel like a jerk.
i had no intention of hurting you. hurt your feelings. but if i would have continued wouldn't that be lying to myself and lying to you.
as days, months,years go on. i find my self or us attached to each other.
our life is universe apart. you have gotten almost the best deals in life. good family. good friends. anything you want you name it.
my life has been covered or rather blocked by a big forcefield ever since i was born. believe me when i say this.
i took upon making the decision my self. as i do not want you to feel what i felt. during the tour of my life. like i said. we are worlds apart.
i appreciated all your help and commitment towards me. after all those times.
its not because i had another girlfriend or anything like that. i just want you live your life as it is.pampered loved and showered with all the things you want.
i am nothing and i am hopeless